if you have, then same with me. if you haven't, i wonder if you are a great chooser or you are a typical of someone who think more before you decide a decision. or i wonder if you are a typical of someone who never regret something you have done? wow, that sounds so cool when someone could never regret something.
okay, here i am.
in a place where not too far from my family's yet feel soooooooooooo far. yap, i feel so far from my family. ive never thought that being here is the wrong decision.
before, i really wanted to be here. to live here. to study here. to get some have fun here. to be rounded by my friends here. to be...ya here.
till someday my God listened my prays and sent me to be here. how great that was.
but...
i missed something
i missed something that perhaps would ruin my plans.
i missed my family. i missed that if i lived here, i and my family would be separated.
i calmed down my self, not to regret my decision. i said to my self that i could pass that hard time of being separated with my family.
i cried a lot at that night, 2 or 3 nights i spent my night with tears.
i could enjoy my day with study, but after it. i couldnt. i have to realize that there i am. live alone without my mommy daddy and my lil brother, that feels really bad.
i went home when the holiday came. i felt sograteful being home. but i realized that i should back to my new place as well.
yap, theres nothing i can say except pray to god and say to my self that the only or single reason why i am being here is, i have to continue my study. 4 years. focus and never forget my goals. my study should be done in 4 years. im forbidden to disappoint my family. i should make them proud of me. ofcourse make me proud of my self as well.
i pray to God, i ask my mom' prays. i always do.
come one, youre never live alone. i have my mom's prays with me. i have my family who are waiting for me, waiting for my successful.
never regret something, but prove that your decision isnt wrong!!!!
yeayyy
